Having Depression Is As Busy As A Second Job

As part of my attempt to recover from depression and return to a relatively ‘normal’ life meant returning to work.  The employment market meant there was no jobs part time nor any that were within half an hour from home so I started full time work over an hour from home, which places extra stress…

When support is given to you but you put up a shroud of distrust…..

I never had a Mum to talk to when I was growing up.  I never had a sister to talk to as we aged together.  I never had a partner that I felt comfortable in disclosing too.  Those who I worked for, who I was able to talk to used my words against me.  This…

The ongoing struggle to be me……

Last week I could only manage one day of work, I ended up at my doctors and then the following day at my psychiatrist.  Both I told I needed to see a counsellor, both said I needed a longer appointment to get a mental health plan and they couldn’t do that today.  Gone are the…

A return to darkness….

I have a lot going through my brain, a lot that is negative self-talk brought on my mood slowly slipping into the black hole that is my depression and severe exhaustion that saps absolutely everything from me. I don’t want to be on this precipice, or maybe I have already fallen over it, despite where…

Moving forward with trepidation…..

The last 12 months have been the worst and most challenging of my life, filled with near fatal events, depression, and admission to hospitals, and psychiatric wards. My therapy has included a lot of drugs that have caused different reactions and side effects, and ECT (electro convulsive therapy) that has left me with retrograde amnesia/lost…