The day from hell….yet I said for the first time “I love life”

Today I had a challenging day…. I left for work in the dark, got home in the dark. I left and it was 9 degrees with 120 kilometre winds and it was absolutely pouring with rain. I got to the train station and was literally battling to stay up right and not taking off like…

Somewhat ‘content’….

It has been awhile since I wrote. I have been in a strange place that I haven’t been use too. This place has been a place where for the first time in a very long time I have felt ‘content’, somewhat happy. Well I think that is what I am feeling or where I am…

The ongoing struggle to be me……

Last week I could only manage one day of work, I ended up at my doctors and then the following day at my psychiatrist.  Both I told I needed to see a counsellor, both said I needed a longer appointment to get a mental health plan and they couldn’t do that today.  Gone are the…

This time last year….

I have come a long way since this time last year. 14 February 2013 I have been told, because ECT stole my memory, that I received a box of beautiful Roses and ate Chinese food….you are probably think this is lovey, so……well I was in a psychiatric hospital going on a month, half way through…

A day in the life…..

No two days are the same in my world of depression, bipolar and general anxiety disorder.  In any one day I can go through many different extremes from complete exhaustion that no amount of sleep can cure, depression that swallows me up like the ocean, anxiety that leaves me on tender hooks, and mania that…

Moving on……

How often do you hear someone say or you say something about moving on? If your like me it appears every second person is moving on from something, some minor things others big things affecting lifestyles. Whatever the reason, can we really move on? Unlike moving house we can’t pack a box, move locations, unpack…

Maybe I am just broken……

You wouldn’t send a footballer back onto the field with a broken leg, you wouldn’t send a child to school with chicken pox, and you wouldn’t go to work with a migraine, food poisoning, in fact when your sick most of us stay home in bed. I have had a mental illness for more years…