Too much of a good thing…..

My mental illness, depression, bipolar and anxiety, have been stable for some time.  I have my occassional bad day or two but most of the time I am okay.  After many years of being very sick and at edge it has been a relief to feel okay, to have no voices in my head over…

When the Black Dog shows his face…..

The worst bit about believing you are on a road to recovery from depression is veering off that road onto a bloody side street met by your Black Dog, shrouded in thick fog, and not having any reason that can justify this setback and street of obstacles to fight your way over.  But that is…

My journey is not all rosey……

WARNING:  Some of the contents of this post may be confronting and upsetting, if you feel depressed and need assistance, you can call Lifeline on 13 11 14 or BeyondBlue on 1300 22 4636. I think I have given the wrong impression to some.  Yes I am starting to recover, but every day is a…

The milky froth on the cappuccino….

B.F Skinner argued for half a century that all of mental life was mere epiphenomena, the milky froth on the cappuccino of behaviour. When you flee from a bear, this argument goes, your fear merely reflects the fact that you are running away, with the subjective state frequently occurring after the behaviour. In short, fear…

The punishment caused by our inability to let pain go….

“When we cling to pain, we end up punishing ourselves.” – Leo Buscaglia With depression comes pain. Pain that comes from the illness itself, pain from the loneliness when depression drives people away, pain from the struggles with the bullying, conflict, and stigma that depression attracts, pain from the cutting, and self abuse that your…