Nobody Can See Or Feel What It Is Like For Me……

I don’t often talk about the whole spectrum of my illness.  More often I talk about severe depression and how it impacts on my life constantly.  I don’t talk much about my Bipolar disorder, I guess because I don’t see my manic highs as much of an issue as the other spectrum, the depression, the…

When support is given to you but you put up a shroud of distrust…..

I never had a Mum to talk to when I was growing up.  I never had a sister to talk to as we aged together.  I never had a partner that I felt comfortable in disclosing too.  Those who I worked for, who I was able to talk to used my words against me.  This…

This time last year….

I have come a long way since this time last year. 14 February 2013 I have been told, because ECT stole my memory, that I received a box of beautiful Roses and ate Chinese food….you are probably think this is lovey, so……well I was in a psychiatric hospital going on a month, half way through…

Getting the conversation started with R U OK?…..

“Everybody saw her drown but nobody saw her struggle.” – Unknown Depression, in fact all mental illnesses are a hidden illness, out of sight from those around us. The stigma attached to depression often leads to shame about our diagnosis and our inner struggles that most keep to themselves not because we want to fight…

The role our story plays in defining us…..

“It was only when I was ready to give up every story I ever believed about myself that I remembered that I am, and have always been, here as a whole, no matter what my mind or body may be experiencing. It is as if stories of being broken make us feel special for being…

To you……

“To the child who grew up in the realm of ‘cant’. To you who lived ‘never enough’. To the one who came home to no one there, and there but not home. To the one who could never understand why she was being hit by hands, words, ignorance. To the one whose innocence was unceremoniously…

Depression – its impact upon me as a Mum…..

To look at my little boy, well he isn’t so little anymore he is 13, but he will always be called my little boy by me, you would not know that he was being raised by a single Mum living with depression. He is a happy, mature, independent, committed, talented, smart, and friendly boy who…

My commitment to Mental Health

“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.” I was…

Moving on……

How often do you hear someone say or you say something about moving on? If your like me it appears every second person is moving on from something, some minor things others big things affecting lifestyles. Whatever the reason, can we really move on? Unlike moving house we can’t pack a box, move locations, unpack…

A special Merry Christmas

To all my dedicated and supportive readers, have a very special Merry Christmas. During this festive time we need to remember how hard this time of year can be for those suffering from depression. For some with a mental illness it means this time of year is unfortunately times of very intense emotions, including sadness,…