Just call me a FAILURE!!

It is so easy when you have a mental illness to feel like a failure, its apart of the disease, its part of the crippling thinking……it is something that I have faced and felt for most of my life and continues to this very day.  In the last 9 or so months it has been…

Too much of a good thing…..

My mental illness, depression, bipolar and anxiety, have been stable for some time.  I have my occassional bad day or two but most of the time I am okay.  After many years of being very sick and at edge it has been a relief to feel okay, to have no voices in my head over…

Nobody Can See Or Feel What It Is Like For Me……

I don’t often talk about the whole spectrum of my illness.  More often I talk about severe depression and how it impacts on my life constantly.  I don’t talk much about my Bipolar disorder, I guess because I don’t see my manic highs as much of an issue as the other spectrum, the depression, the…

Depression, the secret we share…..Andrew Solomon

Andrew Solomon is a writer of politics, culture and psychology and is known for his 2001 book The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression, which won the 2001 National Book Award and more recently his 2012 book, Far from the Tree: Parents, Children, and the Search for Identity. In his talk Depression, the secret we…

The ongoing struggle to be me……

Last week I could only manage one day of work, I ended up at my doctors and then the following day at my psychiatrist.  Both I told I needed to see a counsellor, both said I needed a longer appointment to get a mental health plan and they couldn’t do that today.  Gone are the…

Slideshow…..

WARNING:  this post contains material that some may find upsetting Nd confronting, if you feel depressed and unsafe, please call Lifeline on 13 11 14 The last 24 hours have been extremely hard for me and it was not something I expected by seeing, hearing and reading about someone else’s tragic death.  Australia woke to…

A day in the life…..

No two days are the same in my world of depression, bipolar and general anxiety disorder.  In any one day I can go through many different extremes from complete exhaustion that no amount of sleep can cure, depression that swallows me up like the ocean, anxiety that leaves me on tender hooks, and mania that…