Maybe I will never change, this will always be….

Things seem to be getting increasingly harder for me….stress and depression are starting to consume me.  My greatest enemy in my fight against mental illness is my type A behaviour which drives my determination, commitment, passion, drive for the best….it is an obsessive feeling, a drive to never give up no matter what, a need…

I still feel so empty that my cousin is no longer here and that he took his own life.  He was the person that in a million years I never thought he would die like this.  I have a lot of trouble sleeping, not because of this, I have insomnia that comes and goes, comes…